Who I’m Wearing Breakdown: Beanie: Adam Levine, Flannel: Van Husen, T-Shirt: Forever 21, Pants: Levis 501, Shoes: American Eagle
September has felt like such a dull month. I literally haven't had anything eventful happen this past month. I may have been diagnosed with a disease and lost a family member over the summer, but at least it wasn't this dull. I found this pond on a walk recently. I needed to go and clear my mind and thought it was the perfect place to do so. My nurse tells me I need to start taking longer breaths. I have been getting so impatient because of my newfound anxiety. When I went to this park, I thought of the love theme, once again. I found this bridge that people put a lock on with their s/o names. I thought it was so beautiful when I saw it. It was also a bitter reminder that I am still all alone. But between the locks was a lovely little view of the water. As I watched the water flow, I realized in order for me to one day have a lock on a bridge like that, I have to find a way to be at peace with everything that has happened to me. I'm not there yet. I may feel more calm by taking longer breaths and going for the scenic route, but I'm not at the point where I can truly let go.
photographer: Joey @joannamariejoey
Book 1: Chapter 5