What I'm Wearing: Shirt: Apt 9, Sweater: Calvin Klein, Pants: Calvin Klein, Shoes: Apt 9
Welcome back to mrdombaza.com. Here is the first page, the first little story within a story of this next story book. I hope I can continue to be honest and real with all of you. We last left off wrapping up a "Tale as Old as Time." Now I will build upon that and see where in the world this life will take me. I wanted to write an introductory letter because for me this is basically outfit one. This is a fresh start here on mrdombaza.com. Although this post may seem like it's about to be light hearted, it's not. I'm going to continue discussing the reasons why I put together these outfits, the meaning behind them, and how I'm feeling in this exact moment. I hope you will continue to read and follow along my journey. And I hope this new story can intrigue you to come back weekly and inspire and touch your heart in some way.
ONCE UPON A TIME, there was a young man who thought he had control of his world until the day it came crumbling down. As you know from his previous book, he's had many up's and downs. Not much has changed since we last left off on a happy note. You can't have a happy ending without the pain and suffering that comes with the price of "they lived happily ever after" on the very last page. Life is filled with beautiful little moments in between, but even in the brightest moments, the darkest lights can illuminate over you.
"How's The World Treating You"
Hello everyone, Thank you so much for stopping by once again. I can't believe we are in a new era of mrdombaza.com. What a journey it has been! Finally I am at 101 outfits and I can look back at the last 100 and see what I can build upon and grow here on mrdombaza.com. I've been sick with that nasty virus going around, I'm under a lot of stress, and have so much going on behind the scenes of my life that i'll touch base upon, but won't dive in deeper or tell you more. Not everything needs to be shared in public. It's finally spring and I'm trying to let the light in but the darkness always finds a way to creep up on me. This outfit and this shoot may seem light hearted but once again it's the color green. In case you forgot green is the color of Glaucoma. The disease I was diagnosed with 3 years ago. I'm using green to represent both my light and dark sides. I chose to start off this next era with green because I felt it was the right thing to do considering the story I've been telling so far. Let's dive into this outfit and see where I am and where my life is in this moment.
Going into outfit 100 I knew months ahead it was going to be green. I just didn't know what I would write around it. I didn't know where my mind and my heart would be in this moment. In January I crossed that line and opened a portion of the can worms I had built up surrounding the info of my disease. Writing "It's Not That Easy Being Green" was therapy for me. I knew after that post I had no choice but to write what I'm feeling and why I'm wearing these outfits to guard my heart and express my soul. I chose to wear a green button shirt from Apt 9. I thought it was appropriate for my 2nd spring outfit for 2017. I wanted something preppy because spring and preppy go hand in hand and anytime I get to wear a sweater over my shoulder is just an excuse to make me feel like a superhero with a cape. I look to superheroes, fairytales, and adventures a lot. Because not only do they inspire me, I relate to them so much. For me a fairytale like Beauty and the Beast, or a superhero like Daredevil, or a battle between the light and dark in Star Wars, I see apart of myself in each protagonist and antagonist. For me green is my protagonist AND my antagonist. I see it as my glaucoma can be my strength or most hated most hated enemy. So with the 2 dark sleeves wrapped around my neck, I have my light green shirt and my dark green sleeves to balance me out. Next up is my pants from Calvin Klein. I love CK, I felt that I needed some blue to even out this look and make it seem light even though I'm not in the brightest place in my life right now. I love a good pair of suit pants and CK is exceptional when it comes to that. Last up is my shoes from APT 9. I wore this pair in my 100th outfit and had to carry it over to 101 because I wanted to start this new story with them. One book may end, but pieces of the last story carry over to the next to grow and expand the characters story arc. Or in my case, the story arcs of my life.
As I said to you guys I want to be honest and open with all of you. Because when I look back at this I want to remember where I am in this moment. Yes, I had the flu last week but that's not what brought me down. I was not well, but I wasn't so miserable like most people would say. It sucked, but I'm pretty good at dealing with pain by now. Last Thursday morning I got a phone call that 2 people I love very much were involved in a pretty damaging car accident. They are both lucky to be alive, but without that wall they hit, they would have gone over a cliff. I will not elaborate any more than that, but what I will say is it's scarred me pretty bad. It scarred them too, and I hate seeing the 2 people I love most hurting and in pain. If you saw and heard the experience they had you would understand right off the bat why I'm so stressed out. I am hurting for them, my heart hurts. And I ask all of you even though I won't mention names, I think you get a clue of who I may be talking about, to keep us all in your prayers. I pray that I get the strength that I need to keep going for those that I love. Because right now, it's really hard. I kept pushing off this post because I've had no time to sit and reflect on my feelings. I finally got a moment to myself to just breathe, I need air, I feel like i'm drowning. This here, this blog, writing and talking to all of you is my therapy. Besides song writing and performing, this helps me out a lot. I'm scared of letting down you guys, letting down the people I love, and most importantly letting myself down. I feel the weight of the world on my shoulders, and all I'm trying to do is get my feet grounded and somehow get a second chance to do it all right. I don't know why my life is filled with so much bad, but jesus suffered a lot, and he rose above it all in the end. Like a fairytale, you don't get to the happily ever after without fighting the battles along the way. Opening up just a little to you guys, I feel a little more air breathe me back to life. So how's the world treating me? Well, not so well right now. But i've learned broken pieces can make something beautiful and that's exactly what I'm going to do with my broken heart.
Photographer: Joanna Wheeler
Every other post I will include a song or playlist that's inspiring me and guiding me on my journey. Here's this week's. Hope you press play.
2 Years In My Life: Chapter 1