Who I’m Wearing Breakdown: Hat: H&M, Sunnies: Armani Exchange, Pants: H&M, Boots: Forever 21
Sorry I have entered any of my thoughts these past few weeks. My Uncle John joined my grandma up in heaven and it has been a pretty rough time. My parents had all the services at their house. 2 weeks of the rosary and a lot of family staying with us. It was bittersweet time because we don't really get to see everyone, yet everyone got to come and honor Uncle John one last time. I have been laying low and somehow managing to continue treatment while the guests have been here. Obviously, I have not been working, but how can I with all of this going on. I never would have thought a year ago I would be in the studio in the heat of summer, then a year later wearing all black to honor my Uncle. I finally got to sneak away from my family today. Took a walk in all white for a change. July will forever be known as the month we lost my grandma and her brother. I thought about the love our family has gotten these past few weeks. I started to strip back all the pieces of my life and realized, i'm pretty alone. It has been good to be surrounded by people, but they are all my family. I look back at my loved ones who went before us and I look at the loves they had in their lives. I just wish I could climb a fence and find my Romeo or Juliet. I don't think that is possible right now. I have the spent all my teenage years married to my career now I have this disease and my future is just so unclear. Look at what just happened, none of us were expecting for Uncle John to pass away so suddenly. Things keep changing drastically and i'm just trying to keep up with life. It would be nice to have someone to actually vent about this to. Who know's maybe one day i'lll be able to do just that.
Book 1: Chapter 4