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What I'm Wearing: Shirt & Pants - Forever 21, Shoes - Good Fellow
I do write in my diary daily. This is just an untold never before seen page. I think of these as the in between pages. Sometimes I have nothing to write about. I shot this look as a bonus look and felt like giving it to you guys. So to go with it here is a look inside my head. These are my personal thoughts in the pages I don't share with anyone else, but you. Enjoy my mess, lol.
June 6, 2018
I'm sitting here going through my e-mails. I just got invited to cover a museum tour called "Badass Bitches". I never get invited to exhibits or things like this. First off, Badass Bitches? I had to google this because I didn't know what I signed up for. I'm so excited to go though. I feel like Curious George because Summer is just starting and i'm so interested to see what is bound to happen. I've been working non stop trying to set up some projects. Nobody knows this yet, but I have been planning a re-quel of "Let The Music Be Your Guide". I have been thinking about doing this since early last month. It is pride month and I sure as hell want to stand out and spread the importance of what this month stands for. I started reaching out to some of my loved ones from afar to see if they can take part of this special project of mine. I want this to work. Even if it is just a little audience, I just want the love I have inside my heart to be spread across the board. We all know how I was done wrong the last time. I'm doing this new thing where I write a little something everyday so I remind myself of how i'm feeling.
I watched this vlogger on youtube and he wakes up every morning and writes about what is going on in his life. I don't tend to write everyday, but yesterday I started when I got involved with Jenny's donor's choose fundraiser. I'm honestly a little frustrated with that, because I'm helping my sister promote her fundraiser for KIDS that need it and yet all these privileged people on instagram can't even donate a dollar. Like I'm not rich, but I can sure as hell spare a dollar. $1 will not hurt you. You will get something good in the long run. I was reading through my comments, "aw this is so cute". Do people even read? If you come to my blog, you are either there to look at my face, my clothes, or whatever the hell i'm promoting. Some actually read my words, but some could care less. That's why I save these private pages for myself so I can vent and gossip about the world around me. Sometimes these things can't be spoken allowed. But let's be real, people only look out for themselves. It is a little annoying, but i'm glad to know good people still exist in the world.
Another thought - The world cup is coming up. I was talking with my guy and dummy me never really paid attention to the cup prior to this year. I thought the world cup took place every year. P had to give me a lesson on when it happens. I watch soccer a lot now though. I love PSG, I fell in love with that team over the past 2 years. I love the LA Galaxy too. I got into it because it was a HUGE deal when I moved to LA. Plus before he retired Robby Rodgers came out and it was like a god sent gift. Not only was he extremely attractive but he broke barriers for sports. Lost my chance on that when he married Greg Berlanti, but it's all good, they are a beautiful couple. They have a son. :*). One of my goals in life is to have a family as adorable as them. Wow! My thoughts are really all over the place. Then again, my life is too. I'm sitting here writing about my teen crush on Robby Rodgers, my frustration with this fucked up world, and plans for a music video, which I have no clue how i'm going to do. Yay Me! Oh shit, wasn't that London Tipton's slogan in "The Suite Life Of Zack and Cody"? I think it is, let me google that... I just spent the last 5 mins googling this, it sure is! You see my mind works very fast. One thought after the other. It doesn't help that the man who is running the country is meeting with some crazy guy next week.
Oh the joy. I'll be like dory and just keep thinking happy thoughts.Then again, is it okay to look at Pixar with the same amount of respect after the John Lasster news. I can't believe that. Oh screw it! These characters and films are more than one mans wrong doings. The Incredibles is about to release next week, so I hope his wrong doings won't over shadow that. I don't think it will. Like I said, Disney is more than the people who were once employed for them. In fact we are more than the people who overshadow us. All these fools who don't pay attention to our world, screw them. Screw it all. We are so much more than the little underdog they think that we are. Look at me, I'm not writing perfectly, i'm just writing about what is in my head. It is a big mess, but hey that mess makes something beautiful. Doesn't it? Anyways, I gotta stop typing into my diary folder. DD has a shit load of things to do before this Saturday. I'm going to a graduation party too, so i'll be all over the place. I always am, and I wouldn't change a thing.
Until tomorrow my dear diary.
Photographer: Joanna Wheeler
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