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What I'm Wearing: Jacket - Brooklyn Cloth, Tee - H&M, Jeans - Adam Levine Collection, Shoes - Good Fellow.
This Page is made in collaboration with Stella Artois
"We Can't Stop" (feat. Stella Artois)
What a summer it has been! I've been going non stop and honestly having so much fun doing what i'm doing. My sister Courtney and I have been exploring new things all over the city for the past 10 weeks now. It has been so good to finally be with her every single week learning new things about San Fransisco and trying new things. I'm glad we got to take break from our adventures and just chill for good few hours at one of my favorite bars in the city. As you are seeing, man oh man.. i'm letting loose now. I used to be opposed to drinking beer and having fun. But when you reach your limit and get tired of who you have been, sometimes you want something new. Ever since I surrendered back in March I have been shedding all the layers I have built up. I'm now in the city every week, i'm escaping my tower that I was trapped in for so long, and i'm open to new possibilities and experiences. I have evolved and continue to evolve and I don't want to get off the train anytime soon. To be able to sit down, relax, reflect over the lessons i'm learning and drink a few crisp chalices of Stella Artois, what a great day in my book.
In the past 10 weeks I have done 15 photoshoots, 9 of which are collabs that I am passionate about. I released a music video to celebrate a song of mine that I am forever proud of. I continue to gain more knowledge in the Social Influencer industry. And I feel like i'm earning my right to be further than I have been in a long time in any industry that I pursue professionally. I made myself trapped for so long and now I feel like Ariel in the Little Mermaid, seeing the world for the first time, in a long time. I don't know what took me so long to do this. I guess my eye wasn't and is still not stable, but still. My sister Courtney has been living in San Fran for the past 3 years now and we barley saw each other before March. We legit caught up every holiday. Now we see each other each week. It is refreshing for me because I needed her in my life, she never left, but I needed her more prominently. To get to work with her and have fun doing it, that just makes my journey much more of a blast. I'm getting to know other people in the city as well. In May I went to meet with a young guy who I only thought I would see once in my life. Steven Nguyen ended up becoming one of my close friends. We continue to get closer and I love getting to know him and be able to open up about life. Life in general. As you know I have a very tight nit group of friends. Majority of them don't live here, so I have to be open to making friends here locally so I can be able to say i'm doing something with people I care about, until I can see my friends from afar. I take the train every week. I feel like i'm taken back to the days when I was 17 , taking the LA metro by myself. I bought a tap card because I'm basically a local now. I'm on bart and taking it by myself. Last week I got on the wrong train and ended up going towards San Jose. I freaked out, but I figured it out and got back on track. Things like this make life a little more nerve racking, but exciting. It is exciting because I am learning new things. Yes, getting lost can be scary, but it can be good because you learn something you never knew. I'm also not as scared as I was before to speak up about things that matter to me. In the last 10 weeks I have spoken up about Racial division, health programs for low income students, un fairly treated teachers, low income and homeless students, being a feminist, woman's rights, gender equality, racism, LGBTQ rights, body image, equality for all, my thoughts on the current state of America, immigrant separation, clean energy, and global warming. I am so proud of myself because these are things that matter to me. I am speaking up and speaking out for the first time in a long time. I know I have a voice and it is about time people hear what I have been building up inside. I will continue to speak out about important issues I am facing and that the world around me is facing. As I continue to let loose and free myself from a past that has held me down for so long, I continue to learn more about the causes that are important to me. I continue to learn how to use my voice to better my life and the world around me. I haven't really spoken about how I feel lately. I've just been speaking up about the issues going on and why it is important to me to speak out and support them. I needed to write this page so i can just breathe for a second. Sit here and enjoy a nice glass of Stella Artois and just unpack my mind so I can make room for more knowledge.
I can't stop what i'm doing. I have gone through so much and I just want to keep going down a path of good. I want to keep doing good so I can give back a little good to this world. To have my loved ones like Courtney, Steven and more be along for the ride, I hope no one gets off the train anytime soon. I know summer doesn't last forever, but I hope that the ride doesn't stop once we reach fall. I still feel there is more good to come. There is more good I can do for the world. There is more things I can learn and experience. Who would thought a year ago I was so against letting loose and here I am 56 pages later in a bar having fun. What a trip! I hope it's a trip that will keep on going for years to come.
Photographer: Courtney Johnson , Joey Marie, & Dom Baza
Book 2: Chapter 7