Who I’m Wearing Breakdown: Sweatshirt: H&M, Shorts: H&M, Shoes: Cotton On
I needed a moment to myself today. I asked my cousin if she could meet me down by the docs. Staying in the Sacramento area for my eye treatment has been a weird shift for me. I will admit it is a little peaceful here. It is kind of dead tbh. No one is really out, because I guess it is too hot for them? I'm not really sure. My meds have been draining me so much. I'm trying my best to adjust to them but i'm having a hard time. My pressure is still up. It is like an inner battle within me and my eye. I don't know how to control this. My doctor is such a sweet man and the nurses have been so loving to me. I'm really grateful for the treatment I have been getting. I feel like a burden though. I am the only guy coming in every week for treatment. This man has other people to take care of, yet he makes me his top priority. I know it is his job, but everyone knows he takes a little extra care with me. I am so fragile right now, like i'm a hot mess of emotions and the whole hospital knows that. I'm lucky Sacramento has little docks where I can go and clear my mind. Just relax for a moment in time and think of something good. I spoke to my producer and it looks like my album release party is still going to happen. We had to push it back a month because of my eye and everything that happened. It is going to be next week. I'm looking forward to it. At least I have something good to look forward to. For now i'm going to enjoy sitting with my new friends the ducks. Hopefully they hear me out as I vent about the pain I am going through.
photographer: Joey joannamariejoey
Book 1: Chapter 4