What I'm Wearing: Jacket and Sweater- Good Fellow, Pants - H&M, Shoes - Guess, Socks- The Beatles Collection for Happy Socks
Yellow Submarine (feat. Happy Socks)
We all wish we can run from our problems, sail away in a yellow submarine from your childhood, escape, stay and wish that things would never change. Page upon page, layers and depth are added to the story of lives. Over the summer I was approached by Happy Socks to continue our collaboration into the fall and winter. When they sent the socks that needed to be showcased, it just so happened it was in collaboration with the Beatles new Yellow Submarine collection. Growing up I had the great honor of being raised around amazing music, including the Beatles and this iconic record. Music has always been my escape. I think that's why I entered the music industry in the first place. I had to step away these past few weeks to reevaluate my story and choose a path that I think is much better. As I build up to that, I plan on adding new layers and depth to my life over the next few weeks. I needed this collab with Happy Socks to help me escape for a moment in time. The past few weeks have been interesting. I look at the socks and think of the lyrics to this classic song. "We all live in a yellow submarine", I repeat that to myself, and realize how normal that is for so many people. So many people are scared to step outside of the box and realize it's okay to be different. I feel like the underlining message of that song is escape. I'm not trying to run away from my problems, in fact I have addressed them head on these past few weeks. It's been a time of reflectiveness for me and now I know what I want more than ever.
Fall and Happy Socks. How the hell can I combine the 2 and make it fit within a very tight and personal chapter of my life? I wanted to take the socks and make them normal, per say. I wanted a normal fall outfit to showcase that something extraordinary can live within it. The Beatles have always been a huge inspiration for me. From the wackiest of songs to the most inspiring lyrics, I feel like they get the up's downs in our lives. I have mentally been struggling with what choices I want to make going forward. I think of the Beatles music and realize they struggled too. Hey Jude was one of my favorite songs to perform growing up. I think of my Grandma, I always used to sing Beatles and Bee Gees songs to her. She makes a cameo in this weeks shoot via my necklace. As you all know from previous pages, my Grandma passed in 2011. Before she passed she gave me this necklace that I cherish and protect with all my life. I try to not to showcase it a lot, but I wear it and I feel protected knowing she's close to my heart. I knew I had to include it with this page of my life because that's where my personal connection lies. Last week I felt her presence more than ever. I had a really dark week last week. Somehow I didn't feel darkness though. I honestly felt like I was being uplifted. I spent the last year blinded by something I thought was the most important part of my story. I won't get into detail on that right now, but this shoot and this collab came at the perfect moment in my life because I feel like it's the kickstart to a greater plot in this story you all are reading. I pray a lot you know, everyday. My grandma and my family is very religious. I grew up a Catholic and try to say the rosary everyday. My necklace from my grandma has mother Mary on it. I was raised that if you pray to mother Mary she will bring you the miracle you have been searching for. My grandma knows I need a miracle in my life. It's been horrible these past 3 years, and if your looking from the outside, it honestly looks like it's not going to get better. But I look in my heart and I feel like things will get better. Like the brightness and happiness in this wonderful collection of socks, I'll break away from the normal and sail away in my own Yellow Submarine.
My mind is all over the place. Honestly give me a break, this song and this record is like an acid trip, am i right or am i right?... lol. You can tell by the designs of the socks, there is so many different emotions within this record. I have so many different emotions i'm feeling right now. If i'm being honest, I feel really strong right now. I always knew I was strong, but I didn't know I could be this strong. I guess i've been through so much shit these past few years, that I shouldn't be phased by something bad thrown my way. What could be worst than being told your going to end up blind?... I could think of a few other things, but as I realized these last few weeks, sure my sight is declining.... but I can see better than ever in this moment. All I know is without the people I love not being here these past weeks, I would be "Nothing Without You". I pray that one day we can all escape from the normal lives within the yellow submarine, and stand in the light we were born to stand in.
Photographer: Joanna Wheeler
Every post I will include the song that inspired me to build a post around it's title
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