I've been thinking a lot about love. Not about being in love, but love in general. All the stages of love. From the butterflies in your stomach, when you start to feel it takeover. To the crazy that enters your bloodstream, the kinda crazy that keeps you up at night because you only want to be with that person, and that person alone. To the longing and the depth that your heart feels when you have to part one another. To feeling whole and complete when you are in each others arms. To the disappoint of an argument or a disagreement. To the somberness after a break up or dissolution of the relationship. To the rage and the pain that you feel from it going all wrong. To the sadness in your heart, knowing you can't do it anymore, you've tried, but you can't love this person in the way, you used to. Love has many stages. As my world continues to flip around upside down, I begin to see love in a different way. Everyone knows, and I mean every single person in my life, knows that love is very important to me. I keep my heart guarded for a reason. I'm the kinda guy that doesn't like to date around. I never liked to hop around and go on one time only dates or hook up with someone random. I'm the kinda guy that likes to see things through. I'm the kinda guy that is in it for the long haul. I want the marriage, the kids, the family of my own, all while having success. I always believed that when I felt the butterflies and the crazy rush enter my bloodstream, that I would be well on my way to an isle, with the wedding rings, the wedding party, every little thing that I tend to write about in my love songs. Now, I see couples, couples who i'm sure, were once just like me and every hopeless romantic on the planet . They wanted what I want. They followed through with it. They followed through, only to see it crumble to pieces. Lately, there's something off about couples tying the knot. It seems that once they reached their "happily ever after", things changed as they evolved in their marriage. They have trouble walking the path together now that they are bonded by a ring. I noticed that couples, who don't get married, actually have lesser drama and more happiness, than most couples who get married nowadays. I usually would just brush these kind of thoughts away, but it's making me see love in a different way. My whole world has been flipped, and maybe i'm starting to see why, in the little details like this. I think I have to be able to see from both sides of the coin. Because i've only been referring to one side. Love is not one sided. It has layers and layers of depth and emotion, within it. We create this ideal ending in our mind, but we forget, that with every ending, their is a brand new beginning. Couple's stories end up combining after writing their own individual stories. And maybe what we want is not what we should have. Maybe we should continue writing our own individual stories, while our lives together play out. That way we don't have to force our way to find a new happy ending with a brand new beginning. Think about that? It sure as hell got me thinking. It got me thinking hard...
Photographer: Courtney Johnson
What i'm wearing: Overalls - Forever 21
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Stories From My Life - CHAPTER 15
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Stories From My Life
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