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"Its Christmas Time Again" (feat. Lugz)
It's finally back, my favorite time of year. It feels so strange being happy during the happiest time of year. Every year before this year came along, i felt like I had to force a smile on my face. This year is different. I genuinely feel happy. I'm so torn that the year is ending in just 3 weeks. So i'm going to soak up all the holiday feels around me. Believe it or not, but i've never actually been outside to see the Christmas lights here in SF. For the past 2 years, I never went to witness them for myself, until recently. Let me tell you, it's a sight to see in person and I got a little emotional. I kind of felt like Rapunzel from the scene with the lanterns in Tangled. As you know, this is the first year that i've actually gone outside in the evening. I was so scared because of my illness and not having anyone with me, but now I get to see the beauty in the silence and the lights all over the city. There's something so beautiful about witnessing romance everywhere and families ice skating and Christmas shopping. Looking in the storefront windows and seeing the beautiful Christmas displays put up. This is the time that hope truly comes to the forefront to show each and every one of us that magic does exist, if you have faith in your dreams. Last year I felt my Christmas was beyond magical. I know I said I wasn't so happy, but it really was a beautiful holiday. Although, this year is very different. I don't know why, but I can feel it in me that something is very different. Maybe it is the fact that I feel much older and I have built so much upon who i was last year. I'm not the boy who walked around Union Square dreaming about stepping outside of the box. I am now the boy in Union Square who has stepped outside of the box. Now i'm just looking for a way to celebrate all the good that has happened to me over the last 9 months. As I do that, I also look towards the inevitable end of 2018. Looking all around me seeing all the people get so excited about Santa and the birth of baby Jesus, it makes me feel that whatever is coming, it will all be okay knowing that there is still this hope in peoples eyes, especially in such an unstable country and a shaken world that surrounds us. Today i'm reminded how far I have come with this last year and the years before that. It's my 11 year career anniversary. Maybe that's why I feel the age creep on me. It's something that I look forward to every year, because every year my anniversary comes along. it's Christmas time. I get to look back and re evaluate steps that i've taken with my life and my careers. I'm so happy with the choices I have made, but I know it's not over just yet. I still have a few more chess pieces to move before I can call it a match. I look up at the beautiful Christmas tree shining bright with the big red star right at the top. I don't know what this holiday season has in store for me, but i'm ready to watch it all unfold in front of me. I'm so excited to experience Christmas in a brand new way. This feels like it's a first Christmas of it's kind and i'm so anxious to see what that is like. It's finally back, it's finally here, and I will embrace every bit of it. It's Christmas Time Again.
Photographer: Dom Baza
What i'm wearing: Coat - Jack Spade, Sweater - Banana Republic, Jeans - H&M,
Shoes - Lugz
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Stories From My Life - Chapter 9
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Stories From My Life
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