What I'm Wearing: Coat: Towncraft, Sweater: J Crew, Button Undershirt: Calvin Klein, Pants: H&M, Shoes: Apt 9, Socks: DeadSoxy
START OF: Chapter 3
“Leaves That Are Green" (feat. Dead Soxy)
The heat is gone and the chilliness has returned. Gone are the waves that cleanse our souls and here are the leaves transitioning into beautiful colors before our eyes. What I love about fall is that warm comfort feeling you get in your heart. For starters we set our clocks back an hour, all the kids go back to school, the holiday seasons begin, and all the good tv shows come back on the air. Fall is a time for reflection, it’s a time to reach in our souls and share the love we have within. As you already know, Dead Soxy and I have teamed up for a few collab outfits. As soon as I saw this pair of socks, I knew it was the perfect time for reflection. There’s just something about a touch of blue with the mixture of Autumn colors. The socks remind me of the leaves falling into the water. You know what i’m talking about, right? I once went to a park in a small town up in Northern California, and I saw the leaves from the trees fall into this lake. I looked down at the water and saw my reflection along with the leaves. As the green leaves change, the blue socks from Dead Soxy are my reflection on life, love, and hope for the future, for the next 3 months of fall.
San Fransisco, California. It’s my 3rd year being present for a San Fran Autumn. This past Summer was not the Summer I had planned. The story of my life took another direction, So I couldn’t be more happier that Fall is here. It’s another chance for me to fall, not in a bad way, but in a way that gives my life more depth and meaning. I walk around the city and it’s dead for a Sunday morning. The streets are clear and it’s like everyone fled the city, but it turns out people were just trying to stay warm from the cold. It’s the perfect time for coats, so I pulled out my coat from town craft. I love wearing long coats in the fall and winter. Something about this time of year, that has me feeling like the truest version of myself. I stroll the city and and observe everything with my one good eye. I examine the buildings, the street corners and think to myself, each of these were built up from the bottom and they can easily fall back down in the blink of an eye. Fall is the perfect opportunity for starting over after being knocked down. I feel like the colors of the outfit i’m wearing is a cross between purity and the socks is the reflection of myself as I fall for fall. The fine lines on the socks remind me of the fine lines in life. For me, each line represents the various pages, chapters, and eras of my life. I see the leaves desperately try to hold on to the green colors they became over spring and summer. The leaves don’t want to turn to brown and fall. They want to stay above ground and keep things as they are, but they know deep down inside that they have to fall because if they don’t, they won’t evolve. The leaves have to float in the wind and land in the water and swim. The leaves have to fall in order to rise again. It’s the circle of life and there’s nothing more beautiful than the fall scenery being the backdrop to a complex, but beautiful story. Socks and clothing are pieces that some people just wear because they look nice, I mean we all wear clothes that make us feel good and keep us on trend. But behind each piece that is designed and put together, there is a designer, that designer has a story and a reason why they created the pieces in the first place. Sometimes we may never know why they created those pieces, so it’s up to us to take something as simple as a pair of socks from Dead Soxy and give it a backstory through our story, the story of lives so far, in this moment.
I honestly had a lovely fall last year. I met so many people who went on to become my best friends from afar, made memories I hold closely, created holiday moments from food that I can still taste and smell, and I fell in love last fall, I’m still in love, I’m so in love. My greatest hope for this fall and beyond is to share that love I have in my heart with all of you. I hope that I can evolve as my love evolves. I hope that I can share my music and stories to a greater audience these next few months. I hope to make more memories that I will cherish for the rest of my life. I hope to finally see the light of day where I will be able to leave this place I have been stuck in, since I got sick. I hope that my relationship will be accepted and taken in by my family and loved ones, as things get more serious. My goal for this next chapter is to tell you about parts of my life you may not know about. I am ready to open up about so much more. From my past, to my present, to my family, loved ones, people who broke my heart on “the other side of town”, more insight into my illness, goals and fears of my careers, and finally, I do plan on opening up more about my personal life. As the lyrics in the song "Leaves That Are Green" state, I'm 22 now but I won't be for long. I could'nt think of a better way to state the obvious thoughts about change and growth. When I got sick god pushed me off the cliff because I got too comfy with the life I was starting to live. I’m ready for him to push me again, I’m ready to fall and rise within the leaves that fall off the trees. I am ready to let go and let god.
Photographer: Joanna Wheeler
Every post I will include the song that inspired me to build a post around it's title.
Stories From My Life - Chapter 3
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Stories From My Life
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