"Nothings Gonna Stop Us Now"
In the spirit of Halloween, I want to share with you an entry from my last "real" Halloween in 2013. It's just a little insight to my mindset. I hope you dig it.
I had today off. That's something I haven't been able to say for a hot second. It feels weird that we just wrapped up my 2nd album last week. But here I am already bored without work. I wanted to dress up today but there was legit no costumes left. So joey ordered me a unicorn mask to wear. You know, like the one Miley has. I also bought a foam finger that I used to go trick or treating. YES, we actually went this year. I was debating if I wanted to even try and go out. As you know, last year I stayed in and passed candy out to my neighbors. It's so weird how i'm not in my apartment. It's been 3 weeks since I left home from the Honor Society concert and I miss it terribly. This shift of going back and forth from home to home is tricking my mind. I guess I better enjoy this. In a way, this could be my last "normal" Halloween. I don't know what James will have planned for my schedule next year when the album drops. Because we thought i'd have to work, Joey and I had nothing planned for today. Mom's been busy running around town with the fatima so she brought us back food from one of the last rosarys of the day. I told Uncle Robert to put this generic Michael Myers mask on and grab some pillow cases because I WANT CANDY (insert Aaron Carter voice). It seems to me our house and Rich and Melinda are the only ones who still pass out candy. I mean, it is 2013, isn't this supposed to be a thing still?. Let me tell you this Unicorn mask itches and it was hard as fuck to breathe in. Also, I had to hold on to Joey and Uncle Robert because you can't see shit in that. I feel so bad for anyone that is blind, because it was so weird climbing up stairs and not knowing where the hell I was going. I had to use that mask though. If I didn't, I don't think they would be giving an 18 year old candy. We had to go to the neighborhood behind the house because they were the only ones giving out candy. Halloween used to be a day of celebrating for us. It's been dying down ever since I had my very last Halloween bash in 08. I miss that, you know. But I know if I were to have one again, those people wouldn't even show up. They all still hate me for choosing me... get over it people. I have an album coming out next year and better things to worry about than a death threat from a jealous ex friend. At least i'm out keeping up with appearances, even if I am working a mask. I saw ex friends stalking my pics on instagram tonight. Thanks for getting me to over 100 likes, i feel SO special to have your fake ass support. Now that i'm working in the industry, I see some people try to stake their claim and sneak their way back into my life... NOT happening. After spending 2 hours out here trying to dodge bullets by running into former friends, we came back home. At the end of the day it's nice to be here with my cousin and uncle/brother watching American Horror Story Coven. It is so fucking good. It is one of my ultimate goals to dress up as a member from the coven for Halloween one year. Maybe if I have a show next year, I can dress in all black and rock that shit. Doorbell just rang, brb.... I'm back now. It's 20 after 10pm. Mama Nell came over to surprise us as a hobo for Halloween and Nick went as a fisherman. We just spent the last hour around the fire place laughing as mama nell and I danced like crazies on the couch. I couldn't end the night on a more happier note, besides the fact that I got hella candy and 100 likes on instagram. You know how hard it is to get 100 likes? It is so hard, lol. I'm sitting upstairs in my office looking at pictures of the new life I made back home in LA. I see it going on without me. I guess i'm okay with that, I have to be. I know what life I'm heading towards. I know that this may be my last Halloween for awhile, and with that in mind, i'm okay with the fact that at least in this moment I am thriving, happy, and content. What a beautiful year it has been. What a simple, yet great Halloween. Sorry for all the random thoughts as usual... actually NO, i'm not sorry. You are my diary, so put up with my shit, lol.
I love you though, seriously.
Photographer: Courtney Johnson
What i'm wearing: Hoodie - Stranger Things line at Target, Jeans - H&M
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Stories From My Life - Chapter 8
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