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I'm back, in action and recovering from a weeks worth of partying. The month is coming to an end and i'm prepping for Halloween and beyond. I've been sitting here going over the year so far and I just remembered today is my 6 year anniversary since moving to the place that has always been my home, LA. I've been so in tune with the life i'm living in, I nearly forgot about the life that got me here. I'm at such a good place that I honestly haven't been thinking about the past. I should be caring because that has made me a huge part of who I am now. It's starting to honestly feel like such a blur because life has been a blur. It's been so good and flying by so fast. I sit here today and I remember the young adult I once was. My life is kind of mirroring the life I once had there. I was headstrong and going in headfirst and so many opportunities kept coming my way. It all led to a major event in my life, which was Let The Music Be Your Guide and that whole story which led to my disease, which led us to here. Long story short. Now here we are and more opportunities keep coming. I may not be on my own, as I once was. But I still vividly feel those emotions I felt as I would open my door at apartment 17. The nerves still very much so kick in, i'm still very much that boy, but much better. Being in SF is the closest thing I have to being home in LA. I've been considering going back for a hot second. Now that I can travel, I wouldn't mind going just to see it and see how I feel about it. I'm still in love with LA, I always will be. It's the place where I just belong. When I moved there, I felt the world accept me. It felt so full of hope and love. Like a warm hug from a loved one you love more than anything. I see that happening again now. I used to stay up in my kitchen and listen to the city noise around me. It just felt so comforting. Hearing convos from strangers and the sound of a taxi outside at 3am. Knowing that there is a world around me and we are all just doing our best to learn and thrive with what we are given. I have never fallen in love with a city like I did, LA. It's such a huge part of me and it is so strange seeing my new self combine aspects of the man I was becoming there. If could take LA and SF and mesh them, then it would be a perfect home. I miss it, you know. I miss it a lot. I'm okay with not being there right now, but hopefully once I step back in town, It will just feel right. I'm making bigger goals ya'll. I made a huge set of goals my first night there... look at what I accomplished out of that. Hopefully the goals i'm making 6 years later, I can look back and they will be fulfilled. No matter where I go in this world, LA is always a beat in my beating heart. I'm so proud of the journey life has taken me on these past 6 years. It's been a ride and i'm gonna keep on riding it. I may be moving forward, but there is no denying, i'm still in love with the boy I became in LA and i'm so damn happy to see him come to life in SF.
Photographer: Courtney Johnson
What i'm wearing: Jacket - Members Only, Shirt - H&M, Jeans - Forever 21, Boots - H&M
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Stories From My Life - Chapter 8
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Stories From My Life
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